A different view

[Shoshi Ana]

Ana pulled back holding herself up with her hands looking to Turasho, now she was confussed. First he wanted her to lick his neck and now he was saying ‘no’ it was all very strange. She blinked and sat up not sure what to make of this sudden change. What did he want exactly. Though when he asked what was wrong Ana seemed to go stiff. She didn’t look like she was breathing at all and the fact it sounded so blunt annoyed her. Ana’s eyes narrowed for a split second like she was an evil villian looking down on someone with disaproving eyes, but it only lasted for a moment before her face went back to normal and she glanced ot the side.

What’s wrong…. It rang a few times in her mind before she thought. How could she put it to him, trust her to go ruin everything, she was good at that. Several things were wrong, first of all she’d just watched a bunch of men murdered, then she watched Turasho bleeding heavily on the ground, she couldn’t sleep because she was tierd but awake, she couldn’t think because she heard buzzing and her sisters every once in awhile and so much more. Why, why did she had to explain herself, how she was feeling, what was wrong, she always had to. That just annoyed her a little more, though also made her sad. She never really bothered people with her problems, normally she stood in front of a mirror and said it to herself pacing around making herself feel like she’d said it out to someone else without actually burdening anyone with the problem.

No Ana wasn’t going to burden Turasho with this, it might make him feel bad, soemthing were best left alone right, not looked upon, not shared, she was right wasn’t she? Her eyes drew back onto Turasho after she’d been thinking and she smiled a little “It’s not your burden.” She said softly and moved off him before kissing his forehead “Get some sleep” she whispered and then was gone from his side standing by the Patio door looking out through it. What if her sisters were in trouble and her uncle wasn’t there, there was that possiblilty, that would make her the worst sister in the world, but they might not be in trouble yet as it could just be a premintion so she shouldn’t worry about it so much. Still she hoped they were ok and she’d hoped Turasho had gone to sleep or she knew she’d have to explain and she had to think of away to do that.

[turashonogomi]

Turasho felt Ana lift herself up as he watched he face go from normal, to disapproving, to normal again. He frowned when she looked away. He laid there in silence, listening to his own breathing. When she was thinking he was also thinking too. Except about many things, about earlier, his actions, he couldn't even control himself, how was he supposed to be with Ana and still protect her, if he brought bad things with him. He felt that just being around her put her in danger. It made him angry, and normally Turasho never gets angry. Ok well, he does, but not furious.

Though when Ana finally spoke he snapped back to reality, It’s not your burden
Not his burden?! So Ana's life wasn't his problem? Turasho knew for a fact that she was hiding this on purpose. Ugh, girls were so stupid! He watched her get up and leave, but as soon as she got off on him the anger that he had been trying to control since she told him it wasn't his burden, exploded. " Girls are so aggravating!!!" he said loudly, not a yell but close, he slammed his fists on the bed and rolled over, giving his back to Ana. As soon as he had rolled over he knew it had been bad to say that. He didn't want to start a fight, just everything that has happened over the past few days, it was hard to soak in.

I should have never of said that... He thought to himself along with various curse words.

[Shoshi Ana]

Ana watched the plants outside move around a little as the breeze rustled around them letting small leaves move around. Gosh if only she could be the wind, she’d fly home to make sure everyone was ok. She was in so much trouble, this was the 2nd odd night she had been away from home and this time she had no excuse. She could only imagine the fight that would happen when she got home, gee what had she gone and done. Fallen in Love, that’s what she’d done.

She looked down at her feet hearing Turasho and cringed. She was stupid, but that was Ana, she was naïve and stubborn and when she didn’t want to say something she didn’t at least no at the time, like now, she didn’t want to say it. She glanced over to him almost as if she was taking in his anger. Girls were annoying, what about guys! They didn’t have brains! She wanted to yell at him to curse his name and she didn’t know why, it wasn’t all this fault. She kept her mouth closed, she knew if is spoke then she’d regret it because whatever came from her mouth was not true. Instead she bundled it up, that’s what she was good at, hiding it, keeping it to herself.

Ana closed her eyes and looked away, she needed air, she wasn’t going to do this, she was not going to fight, she was always fighting with someone. She opened the Patio door and then closed it behind her. God Girls were annoying! That stupid line, his stupid remark kept singing in her head and every time it stabbed her, cut deep into her skin and bled until she didn’t want to stand anymore. She sat down pulling her knees up to her holding herself, one to keep warm and two she just wanted too. She watched nothing, she let the wind blow around her hair. Maybe he was right, Ana was an annoying person. She rested her head on her arms emotions swelling in her, what if her sisters did need her help. She swallowed and it hurt. In truth they didn’t it was just a small vision.

She closed her eyes for a moment pushing back any tears that might have come forward. She didn’t want to go back into the room, Turasho was there, he was angry and so was she. She’d say something she’d regret she knew herself all too well.

[turashonogomi]

Turasho laid there, he felt really bad for saying that. Knowing An she was going to take it personally. She was going to rethink everything, find someway to make him guilty. He sighed as he heard her leave. That's when he let everything out, normally he didn't cry, because he was supposed to protect Ana. He was supposed to be strong when she wasn't.

So when she left he started to cry, he didn't want to, most guys didn't cry, but this time he did. He had gotten attacked twice, almost killed Ana, got attacked by a hollow, listened to Ana's grandfather hurt her, and yelled at her in two days. He cried and buried his head into the pillow. He wiped his tears only a couple minutes after. He needed some fresh air, he really did.

Turasho sat up and slung his feet over the bed, he looked at Ana sitting on the porch. he sighed and looked down a his feet. He got up as quietly as he could and put on a shirt. Turasho walked to the door, he didn't even have shoes. He looked back and saw Ana in the moonlight, she was so beautiful, so utterly beautiful, and he had to admit. No matter what happened, he would always love her.

And that's why he slid the door back and walked through the hall. That's why he left, he left the bed empty, because he needed some time to think. Ad so did she. He walked out of the shop and down the street. The shops were closed, no more kids were on the street. Everyone and their families were asleep. He stood in the middle of the street and looked at the moon. The same moon Ana was under right now. God, he couldn't stop thinking about her.

" I love Ana Shoshi... " he said softly to nobody, he stood in the street and he said it again. By no time he was yelling it, " I am madly in love with Ana Shoshi!!" he yelled over and over before falling onto his knee and put his palms on the ground, and he laughed. Laughed happily. He was so stupid. " I am truly, deeply, madly in love with her..." he said to himself.

" yup, no doubt, I'm in love..."

[Shoshi Ana]

Ana kept replaying everything in her mind, trying to see every little detail. It was just too much, someone rip her brain from her head and make it stop. One thing kept running over in her mind, apart from hearing Turasho’s harsh words her sisters scared faces. If only she had a phone she could call them up. It made no sense. Gosh she had to drop the little things and start seeing the big things, she needed to forget everything for at least a few minutes, to calm down and relax, to take in some air and breath calmly, to rid herself of such emotions running though her body.

She frowned, why did everything suddenly have to get so complicated, why did her world have to turn up side down and spin faster, man why couldn’t her aunty tell her that was what love was. A big spinning bundle of confusion.

She let out a small sigh and looked up to the sky, she should go and talk to Turasho, but she didn’t want to. She ended up looking over her shoulder to see the bed empty inside, oh perfect he’d run off. Ana looked away looking down, that hurt, that hurt a lot, of course she didn’t know he was just walking around, she didn’t know what he was doing. She laid on the cold ground, and even though it was cold she didn’t feel it all she could feel was the wet tears running from her eyes onto her nose and cheeks before dropping to the ground. She didn’t actually cry out loud, she was too afraid to as silly as it was, she just let her tears take the emotion from her, like it was a liquid cleaning her body. Rage, anger, sadness, loneliness it all left her even the joy did until nothing seemed left and though she could still feel them inside her they were not as overpowering as they had been. Which was nice.

After minutes passed by she thought she had to go find Turasho, but if he had left she didn’t want to know, she closed her eyes hard before opening them and went to sit up but just decided it was too much effort. Whatever Turasho was doing was his business not hers and so she would let him be, who knew maybe he was trying to get space like she was. Ana laid a hand out in front of her eyes and tapped the ground to a little melody playing in her head. She knew if he hadn’t come back in an hour or two she’d go try find him, that was her plan.

[turashonogomi]

Turasho was on the ground laughing hysterically. He sighed and got himself under control. He smiled to himself. That felt really good. Like he had let all the weight of the world off his shoulders. He wishes Ana could of heard him though, she probably think he was crazy. Well, Turasho was bit crazy, everybody was in a way.

Turasho got off the ground, dusted off his pants and shirt, then looked down to his waist. The bandages were still on but he was fine. He pulled off his shirt, not caring that he was standing in the middle of the street, and took the bandages off. He decided he was going to talk to Ana anyway. Why need a shirt, so he decided not to put it back on.

Turasho creeped around the back and jumped the fence into the garden that their room overlooked. The patio had a great view of the old-style Japanese style garden. Turasho used all his abilities to his advantage as he walked through the garden and up onto the patio. He sat on the railing of the deck, he let one foot dangle and the other he pulled close to his chest.

" Ana..." he paused, suddenly all that weight came crashing back on him. He felt his eyes water and tried to hold back, " I-I...I'm so sorry..." he said and couldn't stop himself from crying.

[Shoshi Ana]

Ana sighed a little to herself before pulling the hand from under her head to her face wiping the dry tears from her eyes. She didn’t know how long she had been laying there for she was just trying to relax and she didn’t want to look back into the room in case Turasho wasn’t there, or in case he was there, she wasn’t sure she wanted to know. Here out in the night sky, on the patio’s floor she felt… peaceful. She didn’t have to worry about what she would say or do when she saw Turasho again, she didn’t know what to do or say.

A small breeze brushed some of her hair from her face as she sat up running her hands through her hair pulling some into sight seeing a curl, a big curl, man why did her hair have to do that, she liked having straight hair not this wavy curly stuff that appeared in bits of her hair. It was annoying. She sighed and looked down before she heard someone and looked up.

She almost passed out, why did he do that, just randomly appeared like a ghost, was so quiet and still until he spoke and then everything just went into supper speed zooming by her sending her head into a spin. She blinked as he said her name, her heart stopped.

Relax… it’s only Turasho she had to tell herself, before her heart beat picked up to normal. She wanted to say ‘no’ to him that he shouldn’t be sorry but she couldn’t because it still hurt. Here she was getting visions and all, she had to get a control over them and there he was, having said she was aggravating or something like it.

The fact he cried made her look away sadly before she sighed. What was she suppose to say. She stood up, maybe she should just run, walk off and leave him there but she didn’t want to exactly. She looked over to Turasho and frowned a little, if she wanted to yell at him and make him feel bad this was the time. But as she looked at him she couldn’t bring herself to do it. Instead she walked over stopping in front of him and rapped her arms around him, one to stop him from crying and two because she wanted to hold him.

[turashonogomi]

Turasho stood there, doing what most men couldn't, showing weakness. Most guys didn't cry and here he was bawling like a child. He put hand to his face, trying to wipe some of the tears off his face. He saw Ana was staring at him, was she going to run?

No, she wasn't. He felt her wrap her arms around him and he pushed her off. " I-I wasn't finished!" he said, he looked at her, " I'm not like you, I don't get visions and it was cruel of me to put myself first. I was selfish and mean, I know it's not your fault, I know you can't help it. " he paused and let out a choked cough. " I should always put your needs first, and If you want me to leave I can. I-I mean, I-I..." he struggled to finish his sentence.

" I-I... I mean I'd be lying if I said I was okay without you but... " he paused for only a second, " But it's o-okay if you want t-to leave me... I'd u-understand..." he said.

[Shoshi Ana]

Ana didn’t think Turasho would push her away in fact she didn’t know what to think. She just looked away from him and crossed her arms. He hadn’t finished, great… what more was he going to say… how deep was the knife going to plunge in her heart. As she listened the knife didn’t dig as deep as she thought it might have.

She glanced back to him taking in his words, why was he saying this. Ahh. She wanted to scream and yell and punch something but curl up into a ball… human emotions sucked sometimes. Her eyes closed as if the knife had been pulled out of her before it dug back into her breaking everything again, suffocating her. As Ana’s eyes opened again there was nothing but anger there, though if you looked closer there was sadness, a lot of it, pain and sorrow enveloping her.

Gosh if only she could control her visions, she had no idea what triggered them or how to stop them or how to bring them. “Well I should be able to control them, I should be able to stop them and have them come to me when I want them too not whenever they please!” She snapped, she might not have been making much sense but it made sense to her. “And stop it.” She added on a quieter note as if not to wake whoever was in the room next to them. She didn’t mean stop crying she meant stop talking like that, she wasn’t going to walk out on him. “I… I won’t walk out on you, ever, I can’t… I’ve given you my heart Turasho…” she rubbed her chest looking away turning her body from him “God I can’t breath.” She gasped looking up to the sky.

After a moment she looked back to Turasho “I’ll admit, it hurt… what you said hurt, but I understand… I mean, yea I have a lot to learn about Bounto’s but I won’t walk out on you, I’m not leaving and if you want me to you’ll have to drag me by my hair to the train station tie me to a seat and make me walk through the front door of my house.” She folded her arms a little and looked down feeling more tears…

Gosh go away you annoying wet droplets she thought to herself looking up to the sky before opening them pushing her tears back. She couldn’t let him see her pain, not pain he had caused… well caused a little of it.

[turashonogomi]

Turasho stood there, he didn't wipe away any more tears, he was a bit shocked, sure he loved Ana, he just yelled that to himself. He brushed a stand of black hair out of his face. " I won’t walk out on you, ever, I can’t, I’ve given you my heart Turasho"

" I can’t, I’ve given you my heart Turasho" She had given him her heart, was this true, what happened if things got bad. Would she never be able to get over him. Then she turned away, he looked to the ground, he had stopped crying only a little bit. He smiled, it was true, he would have to knock her out to get her to go home. He knew so because she was a stubborn, rude, and somewhat annoying girl, but he loved her. He loved her, visions and all.

He looked away, he could tell she was holding back tears, tears that she had gotten when he yelled. He was such an idiot. He yelled at her for no god reason. He was being selfish and cruel.

" You don't deserve to be treated like this, in fact I don't deserve you" he paused and walked up to the railing of the patio, " I know you can do better than me... I'm just a selfish boy who doesn't know a thing about love, I'm just that lone kid who nobody wants to talk to because he's always angry. " he sighed ad jumped the railing. He stood there for a second and looked down at his feet. He stood between some roses and Lilacs.

" you can do so much better than this..."