I'm So Very Sorry

[Shoshi Ana]

Ana was visiting today, she normally did out of respect, they probably couldn't hear her but it didn't matter to her, it had strong meaning and that was all that mattered to her. There was no anniversary on or anything, it was simply another day and that was all and yet the words on her mind had been troubling her all week so she needed to get them off her chest and the only person she knew who would listen despite not hearing was her father and mother.

She'd gone and gotten some nice flowers and knelt before their head stones placing the flowers in the little vases by both, that had been her aunties idea, she'd never bothered to ask why that was exactly but she didn't really care in some ways. She dusted off the heads of each stone and smiled resting her hand in her lap. "It's such a beautiful day today you know... I think you'd both like it a lot. A perfect day for a picnic but I bet you both are enjoying one right now on the other side hey" she said though her smile faded.

If her parents had still been alive what would her life have been like? Would she ever have met Orihime or Ichigo, Rangiku or Rukia, would she ever have gone to soul Society, would she be fighting Hollow now? Probably not but she could not dwell on the what if. She glanced to her arm making a small face "Oh this... it's nothing, just a battle wound I got, it's almost healed though so don't worry ok" she added shaking her head and sighed "Though I have to ask, what would you do, if you were here... Yamamoto is missing you know from Soul Society and the Soul King is under threat" she looked to her father's grave "I don't know though how to save them, I mean I'll help where I can but what would you do, would you go after Yamamoto first and how... I'm so confused right now... I need some guidance, anything" she said and just watched for a moment and sighed "Yea... it's something I have to figure out on my own... should have known that" she mumbled to herself pulling some hair from her face.